One year later…
Wow, it has been a LONG time since I have posted. The only way I even remembered having this blog was following a link on my wife’s blog (which incidentally enough, she just started back on too).
Yes, I have a wife now.
It’s very surreal to think of how things were back when I started this blog to where I am now. I had a lot of anger and a lot of skeletons that I was still trying to clean out and put in a yard sale. Some are still haunting me, but I am working through it.
One year ago, I was sitting in the Penn House in Reidsville, having a very romantic dinner surrounded by my friends and family. All of the people I truly cared for surrounded me, with a very beautiful and very fantastic woman sitting beside me. She laid her head on my shoulder and said “Isn’t this fantastic??” The panic of cold feet didn’t set in until about 10 o’clock that night.
My fiancee gave me a kiss and I saw her leave out the front door with her friends for her last night as an unmarried woman. I wrapped my arms around my chest and felt very awkward. I asked my mother and my family if there was anything that they needed help with. They said “No, you’re perfectly fine!!” Then my mother looked at me and said “Honey, are you alright?” That’s one of the first times I ever remember my mom asking me that.
Then…I burst out into tears. I panicked.
I realized that all of the hustle and bustle was my fault. I popped the question, I gave the ring, and this is what happened. I was not used to all of this attention being about me and my life.
That feeling lasted for the next two days until my wife and I drove to the beach for our honeymoon getaway.
Now it is one year since we had that fantastic rehearsal dinner. I am attempting to recreate the meal in it’s entirety (save the desert, which will be our wedding cake). I don’t know if I can pull it off or even if she will notice. But I am going to try my hardest to recreate the magic from that night. Except for one minor detail…
She won’t be walking out the front door. 
